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When prayers are answered and they kinda rock your

When prayers are answered and they kinda rock your world 🙃
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Earlier this week I was praying with Derick over dinner and asked God to reveal things in our hearts that were in the way of living out our calling.
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Last night I took a pic in my FAVORITE pjs from Target. These pjs don’t cover a lot, are stretchy and just the perfect thing to sleep in. I edited the pic, sent it to my mom, sisters and hubby. I felt SO confident in it as I embraced my growing belly and just felt healthy in the midst of my body changing so much. After they responded with nothing but loads of affirmation, I remember feeling on top of the world.
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This morning I woke up thinking “that would be a great picture to post on IG today”. I mean a picture I felt good in that revealed my body to show people that I’ve been working hard in this pregnancy to maintain health (especially after weighing more at my appointment than I wanted to)? Absolutely. I could get even more affirmation than I did last night.
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Immediately convicted.
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Searching for worth in the affirmation I can receive from has never really worked. I’ve showed my body, tried to blend into the fitness world and taken myself into the extremes for acceptance and growth on here.
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All that picture would have done today was either A. boost my pride issue or B. maybe set a standard for how people think pregnancy should “look”.
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There is no “look” to chase that can lead us into the image of God. That was done when He created us.
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I’m not saying that posting that picture would have been bad or wrong. It wasn’t about the picture as much as it was my motive behind posting it. So here is a crew neck selfie from a gal whose prayer was definitely answered. #bodyimage #chasingfreedom #breakthrough

Blessing you with things that have blessed us! @in

Blessing you with things that have blessed us! @inspiringhoney and I are doing a podcast swap this week and in celebration we wanted to add in a GIVEAWAY! This runs today- Friday.
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Gabrielle is a cancer survivor, momma and a true light to the world. I can’t wait for you to hear her on the podcast Thursday.
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The giveaway winner will receive (swipe left to see everything):
⭐️ a spot in my Freedom Method Mentorship health coaching- a 24 week coaching experience to food freedom and a deeper connection with Jesus
⭐️ a prayer journey
⭐️ Inspiring Honey Proverbs 16:24 crewneck
⭐️ God’s Plans Sticker
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TO ENTER:
🍯 Follow both @trainertanner and @inspiringhoney
🍯 Tag a friend in the comments & compliment them
🍯 Bonus entry: screenshot that you’re listening into either of our podcasts and tag us in your stories
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Giveaway closes Friday at 11:59pm! Good luck, honey. We love you! #giveaway #freecoaching #churchmerch #chasingfreedom #cancersurvivor

I’m a runner. Not the exercise running you’re

I’m a runner. Not the exercise running you’re thinking. I tend to run from what feels hard or scary. I tend to shut off or just completely disconnect. Especially when I am uncertain of the outcome.
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This happens when I’m overwhelmed, confused, or lacking clarity. I’ll use “rest” as a cover up to avoid responsibility. I’ll talk more than I’ll listen because silence is uncomfortable. I’ll boast because I’m scared.
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Truth is. This is where I’m at. Right now. But someone told me today that it would be more strange if I didn’t feel some of this as I head into being a first time mother.
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You know, sometimes we think more running would be healthiest when in reality the thing we need most is to be still. This is coming from the gal that sets timers for how long her baths get to be and can’t remember the last day she didn’t set an alarm to wake up. Someone who can’t stand 2 seconds of a silent car ride and immediately finds Spotify or a podcast to throw on.
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Stillness is the hardest thing for me. I haven’t figured it out. But honestly I haven’t tried “that hard” because I’ve never experienced the results it’s offered. I always wondered what Jesus did when He went off to be with God.
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Did He skip rocks, did He sing, did He y’all out loud, did He just sit and stare? Regardless I think I’m being called to sit in it instead of run from it.
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What’s this season of life calling you to do more or less of?

I’m Tanner & this outfit feels all the right out

I’m Tanner & this outfit feels all the right out here on the farm. I’ve dreamed of having babies and watching them run these fields. And now here I stand, in front of my mirror witnessing that miracle come to life. 🌻
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Tbh, this week I have experienced the “pregnancy emotions” a little more intensely than I have in the past 24 weeks. The deep laughter, the frustration, the “idk why I’m annoyed but I am” and the passionate tears.
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We have made some bold parent moves recently to start really living intentionally before this baby comes and it’s revealing so much to me and Derick. But it has come with some emotions that I’ve been invited to sit in and learn and listen.
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If I can leave you with anything for the weekend, it would the MSG version of Matthew 6:22. “Your eyes are windows into your body.”
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That has been LOUD in me this week.
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I am all about a challenge where we can encourage

I am all about a challenge where we can encourage one another in this life. For as long as I can remember, I have felt deeply passionate to encourage and lift up women. Rather that be on the softball mound, through sisterhood and friendships or with this Chasing Freedom adventure, I am here to champion you to be a light. We need bold women who can bring out the uniqueness out in one another so that this world can be packed with humble leaders. Thanks for challenging me @sarahgracemeck and @sincerelymar CHALLENGE ACCEPTED ✨ sharing a few women who inspire me in my stories today! #femicideawareness

Reminding you and I that we get a choice to move i

Reminding you and I that we get a choice to move in a certain direction. A little over a year ago I adventured into making more of my products at home. I did it with grace and accepting that I had a lot to learn and each small move was one in a good direction. There is zero doubt that our stores are packed with things that are tasteful to our nose but really harming our health. I share this to inform you like I have been but with a non-obsessive simple approach done with patience and compounding effort. My 11 months of TTC made me more aware of this than ever and by no means am I “there” yet (wherever there is). But my body, my home, our health is truly a reflection of the incremental changes we are making and I’m blessed. There is beauty in making your own products. When I used to say “I’m too busy” and “time is money”... I was running from the fact that something much greater could come from these choices. Not just health but creativity, appreciation and learning to slow down + learn. You can check out all the stats and research showing the declining of our countries health & highly medicated world. I really do care to be a small part in the domino effect that making the changes for ourselves can do for other families. So here I am, sharing parts of our journey to help other families live more vibrant and energized lives ✨ comment below if you’re focusing on moving in this direction with me?! #nontoxicliving #slowlybutsurely

When I was 10 my super hip and young grandma was

When I was 10 my super hip and young grandma was battling stage 4 cancer. With just a short time to live, my family had moved her out to the farm to spend her last days.

She had one thing she wanted to do before she died. Build her grandkids an in-ground swimming pool and watch them swim.

At that age I didn’t understand death but I did understand swimming pools. Each day as I watched the pool being built in our back yard, I got more and more excited.

I’ll never forget. The time had come. The pool was full of (freezing cold hose) water and we could finally take the first plunge.

My grandma came over and they made her a little set up in the shade against the house where she had a clear shot at the new pool while us kiddos had the time of our life.

I don’t remember too many specific things about my grandma. It seems like what I do know about her now is from the stories that my family still lives to tell about her. Or the random lady at church that was good friends with her lol. But I VIVIDLY remember this pool day and looking up at her sitting in the shade. So still. Smiling with her pink lipstick. Just completely at peace while her body withered to nothing.

When I get fearful about death, it’s easy to go back to that day and cling to the peace she had despite her circumstance.

My grandma lived no perfect life. In fact the older I get the more flaws I come to know in her story. But I’m humbled in knowing that even still, Jesus never stopped. That face I see had a peace far beyond worldly understanding.

Idk what you fear, what questions you have or what leads you down a rabbit hole. But goodness, it’s NEVER too late. We’re never too far gone. Her life was just beginning. And so is ours.

** If this #livingstoryteller post resonated with you, share it to your social media. All week I have been sharing a series of stories in hopes to help a woman’s heart who feels distant, alone or confused.

When I was younger I was riding a mini dirt bike a

When I was younger I was riding a mini dirt bike around the farm. We were all taking turns and I couldn’t wait to whip that thing around and show everyone that I was fearless.

As I was coming back down the driveway to park and give someone else a try, I realized something extremely crucial... I wasn’t sure how to break. I listened to my dad on how to go and go faster, but tuned out the break instructions due to my excitement to get going.

As I was FLYING into the driveway, turning handles every which way, panic set in. This was it, there was no slowing down. I could hear people screaming my name and to hit the break. Little did they know, I was trying my best to guess right.

CRASH. I rammed directly into the garage doors. In shock I kept my feet on the bike as it SLOWLY began to fall on it’s side. Seconds after we were now horizontal, I screamed bloody murder.

The bike motor was blazing hot and resting right on top of my leg.

All of this because I didn’t keep listening.

My dad had fully prepared me for a safe ride, but I chose to only absorb what seemed applicable at the time.

Truth is— I do this with my Heavenly Father too. Especially with things He let’s us enjoy but puts a boundary on for our protection.

Like the relationships he brought me where I was left wounded because I stopped listening to His guidance.

Or the food He gives me access to but tells me to enjoy in moderation.

Or the dreams He allows me to follow but warns me not to make them an idol.

Our Father tells us ALL we need to know in order to experience the fullness of the fruit. Yet it’s so easy to press the mute button when it feels like it’s not longer serving us.

What are you chasing? Where has God put up boundaries to protect you? What are you pressing mute to?

Let’s be followers who choose radical and full obedience even when it feels really hard.

** If this #livingstoryteller post resonated with you, share it to your social media. All week I will be sharing a series of stories in hopes to help a woman’s heart who feels distant, alone or confused. #discipline #obedience #lifewithjesus

My coach: “Tanner, come here!” Me: “Yeah, wh

My coach: “Tanner, come here!”
Me: “Yeah, what’s up?”
My coach: “You’re starting on the mound this game, how ya feeling?”
Me with butterflies of excitement in my stomach: “Great! I will get warmed up.”

It was my Junior year of college and I had been on a long journey back to the pitching mound. I came in my freshman year excited to be a top pitcher for this D2 college team. But quickly weeks into pre-season I could not tolerate the left hip pain any longer. A torn labrum, completely removed from the bone, found me in surgery instead of building my skill level at the collegiate level to prepare me for the first season out. I remember the doctor telling me, “you may never find yourself on the mound again.” Instead of feeling defeated I took the word “maybe” and turned it into a fire that would assure me a starting spot back soon.

After two full seasons of fight and grit and tears, I was yet to give up what once gave me the most confidence in the world. My sophomore season was full of trials. I was “on” the mound but everything felt different. I was in my head. But I still came back my Junior year certain this was the year everything would click.

As coach began to call out line-up for the game, I couldn’t wait to hear MY name in that starting spot. “Scarlett, catching. Erica at short stop. Olivia at second……. And Alicia on the mound.”

My heart SANK. I felt a mix of anger, defeat, and sadness all at once. I wanted to run away to my dorm and hide. I was humiliated. I couldn’t even look at my parents in the stand who drove yet again to maybe just maybe see their daughter back to herself after pouring into her passion over 15 years.

And this began another two years of fighting and humiliation and the ups and downs of hope and defeat. I wanted to quit everyday. I wanted to throw the stat book I was keeping (instead of playing) in the Gatorade jug and just hang it up. But something kept me there. And ya know what? It never got better. I never had the “comeback” that I never stopped believing in.

For YEARS after I never understood why. In fact, as I write this today I still don’t get it fully. {CONT IN COMMENTS}

To my friend in her 20’s, Feeling like a bit of

To my friend in her 20’s,

Feeling like a bit of a mess?
One day feeling like you’re grooving and the next day confused on how you got where you are?
One day feeling confident and the next day in tears because you can’t get it together.

A word to describe our 20’s would be “unpredictable”.
Career
Relationships
Bills
Health

Maybe you are like me and can’t make up your mind. What ya like, your style, what you want to do… it is always changing. I keep thinking my 30’s will be when maybe, just maybe, I will really figure out myself haha.

Want to know what I think God would say to us girls in our 20’s? “What you choose today matters.”
You thought I was going to say, “have grace” 😂
Nope. I think society can conform us into thinking that we “aren’t supposed to have it together” and so we often use that as an excuse to be reckless, irresponsible or lazy. #GUILTY

Grace isn’t an invitation to live without wisdom. Grace is getting what you don’t deserve. It changes us!

And so if your 20’s have looked reckless, selfish, and sinful. Like myself. Grace reminds us that even though we don’t deserve it, none of that can take away the cross. So accept it and choose differently.

This is for protection. For purpose. For security. For calling! <— all things I have craved in my 20’s. And all things I can receive in my 20’s.

Choosing His way doesn’t take away the fun. Which was the reason I avoided Him for so long. It takes away the shame, the guilt, the fear. It’s PURE fun. 
So let’s choose wisely. Let’s let grace move us into obedience. Let’s trust that TODAY, in the middle of our 20’s, we have just as much purpose as we will in our 50’s.

Happy Friday! Virtually hugging you,
Tan

** If this #sisterletter resonated with you, share it to your social media. I have been sharing a #sisterletter everyday this week. Go check them out and share which letter speaks the loudest to you. 😚

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To the wife, Can I remind you and I today of some

To the wife,

Can I remind you and I today of something really simple and that we have heard before? You two are a team.

When I think back to my softball days, I am reminded just how important the “bunt” was. If ya don’t know, majority of the time when a player is signaled to bunt.. she is sacrificially laying down the ball, to move the players in, get herself out and advance the runner on base closer to home. This hurts her personal batting average, choosing the out for the advancement of her teammate. It’s more important to her for her team to win than for her stats to boost.

Back to being a wife. I know for myself it’s EASY to focus on the things I want Derick to do or the things he isn’t doing. Mostly these things have to do with serving me, lifting me up, listening to me or affirming me. It’s easy to assume things about the hours I don’t see him. I’m REAL good at creating an entire story without even telling him a single part of it to see if it is true. Because why spark confrontation when I could be quiet?

Now back to the team. Both a “me focused” and “him focused” mentality loses. A team is “we focused”. How often are we as wives asking ourselves how we can be a better teammate today? How many times are we asking our husbands questions like:
* What is something you don’t want me to know?
* What does it look like to honor you?
* When do you feel most loved and cherished by me?

Some days I wake up solely focused on:
My to-do list
What I’m gonna eat or do for my workout
Taking care of my responsibilities
And making sure I check in with friends

Yet, I speak about my marriage being priority. Over work, over family and friends, over errands and cleaning and working out.

Let’s lay down more bunts. Let’s sacrificially lay down our wants for the advancements of our husbands towards Jesus. Let’s spend time praying so hard for our man’s heart, the people he encounters and for his future. Let’s choose to get to know him by asking him the questions that reveal a new depth of love and understanding.

Let’s be SO busy laying down bunts for our husbands that we forget about our cellulite, wrinkles and love handles.

To the girl that wants to figure health out, I do

To the girl that wants to figure health out,

I don’t eat or drink protein right after I workout.
I OFTEN eat after 9pm.
I don’t track calories or macros or weigh myself.
I’m not stranger to sugar. Or @chickfila fries.

I do care.
I do listen to my body.
I do say no when everyone else said yes.
I do set goals.
I do fail and get frustrated. A lot of the days.

But I’m healthy. I’m healing. I’m choosing progress and patience. Because it is worth it to me.

It’s been over three years (intentionally) on this journey. Some days I feel stuck and some days I don’t even recognize that old me. Maybe this #sisterletter confuses you. Maybe you’re thinking “Tanner, you sound like you still struggle but you are always talking about freedom, especially with your health.”

I heard @lauren_daigle tell a story in a podcast where a man once told her, “True freedom is giving someone permission to misunderstand you.” WOAH I KNOW.

I can’t limit the Holy Spirit and what He is doing, even if people misunderstand it. This is what actually was holding me back of freedom in my health. My “healthy” was doing things and setting goals based on how other people perceived me and not how God actually intended health to be.

The “freedom” I was searching for was freedom to still be accepted by other people without being obsessed about food instead of accepting the freedom that life already was because I was saved, therefore letting THAT change how I lived.

So I write this letter to you and ask you to reflect on one simple question:
Where are you actually pursuing health?

Set a 5 min timer. Pull our your phone notes or a journal. Remove distractions. And answer this honestly for yourself today. And in that time I pray God can reveal something really live changing to you and your health!

Virtually embracing you,
Tan

** If this #sisterletter resonated with you, share it to your social media. All week I will be sharing a series of letters in hopes to a woman’s heart who feels distant, alone or confused.
#foodfreedom #spiritualhealth #healthjourney #onlinehealtheducator

To my momma’s to be, You’re gonna be great. E

To my momma’s to be,

You’re gonna be great. Even great fails. Even great has hard days. Even great often doesn’t know how to until she gets there.

Let’s believe something together. Because maybe you feel afraid. Maybe the world has you questioning so much of motherhood. Let’s believe that God is bigger. Let’s believe that His truth and His promises are also true and promised to our babies. Let’s believe that our personal relationship with Jesus will build the relationship we desire with our kiddos.

Let’s choose Romans 12:2. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is — his good, pleasing and perfect will.

As we prepare to hold our children in our arms, let’s be mothers who spend more time in God’s presence than we do in the presence of “how to” books, articles and videos. (Working on this one A LOT)

Oh what a privilege it is to be where you and I are. With this desire, this excitement, these feelings that keep us up at night. You’re gonna be great. You’re gonna be so great.

Virtually embracing you,
Tan

**tag a friend who is a momma to be to send them this #sisterletter or share it on your social media if you feel compelled.
#motherhood #22weekspregnant

To my sister in Christ, • Intention, discipline,

To my sister in Christ,
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Intention, discipline, heart, prayer, obedience, surrender… these may all be words flowing through your mind often. Maybe you’re like me and wonder if God is proud of how you spend your days. Maybe when you think deeply about Heaven and Hell you begin to feel anxious or like you aren’t doing good enough.
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We hear sermons about grace and acceptance and unconditional love. And then we hear messages about kingdom work, sin and the day of judgement.
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So, my sister, I just want you to hear me when I say, “cling tight”. That nudge you feel to go deeper, GO. That still small whisper that tells you to do something uncomfortable, like praying out loud with your friend, PRAY. That uncomfortable feeling you have because your heart is being cleansed, let it wash you. The Holy Spirit is moving in you and it’s moving in me.

The fear you feel to completely embrace what Jesus is doing in you— face it and embrace it. You’re an outcast, so was He.
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Maybe it is going to change a lot in your life. How you spend your days, who you spend them with, your weekends, your habits. And maybe that is what you’re avoiding? I know I have. Because that feels overwhelming. You don’t hate your life. So why radically change it, right? It would just be easier to remain where you are.
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Recently I have felt a tug to be radically obedience. Well I read in a Bible Study this morning something that I knew was God reaching out that mighty hand to pull me in. She said, “you may be surprised that radical obedience is not really that radical. It is really biblical obedience— but we have strayed so far away from biblical obedience that it now seems radical.” @lysaterkeurst
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So I write this letter to you and I today to remind us to hold tight to His promises! He never stops workin’, even when we don’t see it, even when we don’t feel it. That is Who He is.
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Virtually embracing you,
Tan
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** If this #sisterletter resonated with you, share it to your social media. All week I will be sharing a series of letters in hopes to a woman’s heart who feels distant, alone or confused.

Pregnancy Workout 🤰🏼💪🏼 • I get asked

Pregnancy Workout 🤰🏼💪🏼
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I get asked to share my workouts or how they have changed. Here is a prenatal full body workouts to save! Honestly, my workouts still have not changed a ton. In terms of style of workout. I still like circuits, higher intensity, metabolic style workouts. My biggest thing is time. I workout more consistently (5-6 days a week) when my workouts are short and sweet. I just modify some movements if they 1. feel uncomfortable or 2. have me flat laying on my belly.
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28 Min Workout
:45 work :15 rest
✨Bird Dog Right
✨Bird Dog Left
✨Step Out Sumo Squat
✨Reverse Lunge Pass Through
✨Kneeling Hammer Curl to Press
✨DB Chops Right
✨DB Chops Left
4 Rounds straight through
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This keeps your HR up. The movements are intentional so focus on form and finding rhythm. Takes the pregnancy glow to a new level 😅
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#pregnancyworkout #fullbodyworkout #21weekspregnant #prenatalworkout #homeworkout

Anyone else in an interesting headspace these last

Anyone else in an interesting headspace these last few months?
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With everything going on in our world and culture, I have these moments where I feel like nothing that used to matter, matters.
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And while that’s dramatic, some of it’s good. Some of it is a massive reality check that can completely humble you in 2.5 seconds.
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But I can look back at my life and start to feel defeated. All those years invested so much in sports and good grades and fitness... they can feel wasted. Again, that’s dramatic because there IS purpose in those years and it’s my testimony.
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But when your eyes are opened to the MUCH bigger heart issues in our world... you just learn that the things that used to keep ya up at night are the things people fight for an opportunity to have one day.
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I have this very human struggle that wants “a bang for my buck” and wants results for my energy and work. Always looking for for the next opportunity that gives me more “freedom” (that hurt to say).
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My life does not reflect the truth that Jesus + nothing = everything. My heart is in a massive surgery.
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God help me to be your hands and feet without a worldly return. YOU did return when you rose from the grave and I pray to daily grasp that eternity is the reward and my works here are the celebration.

This body is unbelievable. Everyday it’s changin

This body is unbelievable. Everyday it’s changing right now. I never knew I could enjoy my body AS it grew bigger. This was my biggest fear for years. Gaining weight held me in bondage for so long. A belly sticking out in shirts was my biggest nightmare. But when it’s FOR another life, it all of a sudden becomes beautiful. I appreciate it. I celebrate it.
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And that’s how God feels about His children and what their bodies can do. All those years I saw my body as a obstacle, He wanted me to see it as a vehicle. With purpose and energy and intention. Pregnancy is just one giant perspective change each and everyday and I’m hear for all God is gonna show me through this adventure of motherhood.
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#20w4d #pregnancyjourney #moveandnourish #healthypregnancy

A fourth for the books 💥 love these people & th

A fourth for the books 💥 love these people & this baby slept right through the fireworks! #20weekspregnant #kentucky4thofjuly

The famous #4mileloop. I’ve had a lot of you mes

The famous #4mileloop. I’ve had a lot of you message me and let me know you’re doing a daily 4 mile walk.
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You don’t message me and tell me you’re losing weight or that your body looks better or that it’s making your legs more lean.
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You tell me how good it’s been for your mind or how you pray or how much it’s made you appreciate being outside. You notice the birds more, the flowers and the smell of fresh cut grass.
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And maybe you are losing weight or feeling physically better but that’s become a by-product of the discipline.
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Proud of all my little walking sisters out there. If ya wanna join us, hop on the train. It’s fun, it’s rewarding and it’s teaching us all how to slow down our minds.
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Also this is my precious momma who joins me some nights and I love the time I get with her.
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Comment below if you have been walking more or want to start! #honoryourbody #dailywalks #20weekspregnant

What makes ya cheese really big? With everything g

What makes ya cheese really big? With everything going on, I still feel like we have so many sweet moments to simply smile. In my HIIT workout this morning, my body felt SLOW and heavy. The trainer on the video made us smile really big while we were warming up. And it was right then when I was reminded of the privilege I had to move this body. At first I felt awkward smiling big at a screen by myself in my garage, but then I just let it happen 😂. And I’m glad I did. It’s stuck with me today.
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I feel like we need more smile parties. In our homes, by ourselves, with friends. When something sparks that joy in you, like the way the light shines through your window or the taste of your favorite coffee, just cheese from ear to ear this week. It’s contagious, it’s centers you and it’s give you perspective.
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Let’s just make this week a week of celebrating the things we normally would take for granted. I love ya sis. Happy Monday ☕️☕️ #19w5d #pregnancydiary #mondaymood

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